I just needed to say I am a little bummed today. My daughter is home from grad school on vacation and we were at the grocery store when we saw a young woman with 2 small babies and I said "there's you in a few years."" and she replied "no way--at least 8 or 10 years" and I thought to myself that I probably won't meet my grandkids with this lovely disease. My son is a high school senior and I may not see him through college. I do not usually think this way, but today I did and it made me sad. I know that this disease can go into remission and I plan to follow everything I'm told to do, but sometimes you don't really have control and I also don't want to cause my family pain watching me struggle with the complications of my disease. I'm not saying that I want to end my life, because I don't but I wish things are different and therefore am sad.