Today, a year ago, was my sweetie's funeral. I was not there, I already flied back to Israel. I think that I couldnt stand being there anyway.
I wrote for him the following and his mother read it near the grave. I think I shared it somewhere here a year ago.
Sharing again in memory of my beautiful Batman. Thank you all, for being with me here.
this is my funeral for you sweetie <3
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Sweetie,
My beautiful hero, my sweet love, my prince Phillip, the first, the one and the only.
you gave me so much, you saved me and you healed me. I am forever grateful to you and to God for every second that I was blessed just to be with you. I wish I could have healed you and saved you. I would have given you my lungs if I only could cure you.
I wrote to you lots of love poems. Many of them are too private to share. I choose 3 to share and also wrote new one few days ago.
Whenever you were reading my love poems to you, you were "smiling big".
So smile again and again, your cute sweet smile, from your good place in heaven, and let my love embrace you, like we always used to say: "to infinity and beyond".
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First Poem is from relatively the beginning of our love:
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her world was so lonely, alienated and cold
Forever confined she, to live in this odd
She couldn't imagine such tender kind grace
Until God have decided her soul to embrace
Her unspoken prayers got amazing reply
(you probably understand what I am trying to imply)
And now she is praying to God for his cure
Oh, please God, please help him, his soul is so pure.
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I loved skyping with my sweetie. we were skyping some days for hours. Talking and being quiet, laughing and crying, and praying, and reading the forum together and eating and more…. Once he even went to sleep while I was with him on skype…. And I watched him sleeping in the Batcave for more then an hour…. Here is poem that was being created from skype hours….
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The sound of your voice is so deep and so warm
Making thrill in my heart, and a feeling of home
Your smile is so sweet, with your dimples, so cute
The beauty of you, makes me almost being mute
Your eyes are so good, wise and decent and kind
your soul is the best soul I ever may find.
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Next poem is from the time my sweetie started to feel worse and we decided that when he will feel that he needs me, I will buy tickets and come to him. and so it was. He told me that he needs me on Friday night (my time) and I was with him the next Friday. Actually I could have been there before, if there was no war in Israel at that time.
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Through fire and steam, through storm, water and flood,
I will go for you, my beautiful man, because you are so good,
Bare feet on sizzling coals, miles and miles, will I walk,
Just to help you to feel better…. Because you are my rock.
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The last poem is from the last week, while crying and missing him so much
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God had created you so perfect all over
And he designed me to love you, beyond any border
Beyond time, beyond space, beyond living and death
With every beat of my heart, while I am taking every breath
I am praying for the time that I can hold you again
To be one with your sweet soul. to eternity. AMEN.
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