Thanks guys, but it was a short lived mourning period. I get those very rarely and they last a short time. I actually think I've been quite lucky on the psychological/emotional side of things - considering the situation and pred and all. I do get them though and I had one. On the positive side of things, I got a glimpse of my reflection yesterday where it was a split second and I saw a reflection of the old, skinny cheeked Marta looking back. I know it sounds vain, but what it did do is give me glimpse of the possible reality ahead, feeling and looking 'normal'. I have this unrealistic fantasy that one day I'll wake up and everything will be back to normal - miraculously, overnight - but I know that it can get close to normal in a longer period of time. I just have to be patient.
Baby steps forward.
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