Experiencing a Very Hard Time
Hi ya'll! I haven't been around much, as I'm having a hard time with various areas of my life lately. Unfortunately, I had to make the terrible decision to put my very sweet, very special dog, Kota (blue heeler), to sleep last week. She was 12 years old & I'd adopted her from my little sister about 10 years ago. She had cancer & the tumors just took over my poor baby's body. I knew she was suffering & she finally stopped eating & couldn't breathe well. My husband & I stayed with her the whole time & held her until she left for Heaven. She was the smartest dog I've ever had, was my strongest protector, and she was always by my side. I never had kids, so my dogs are my children, & this is the hardest part of being a furmommy.
So, not only am I hurting from that, but I've been sick with some kind of UTI & sinus infection for a month & not getting better. I'm almost done with a round of Amoxicillin, but still completely miserable. Been running fevers every night, up to about 101 degrees, no appetite, extremely sore/swollen tongue, sore throat, tons of snot/mucous, chills & sweats, and just feel like utter crap. I'm also tapering off prednisone at the request of my rheumy, but I think it's making me feel even worse. I'm down to 2.5 mg, and am supposed to stop taking it altogether by next week. She didn't give me a reason why she was wanting me off it, but I'm nowhere near remission & actually feel worse now than I did back in May when I started all these meds. I'm very discouraged about the Wegs & treatment not working. My rheumy is switching me to azathioprine in about 5 weeks, but I don't feel as though the Cytoxan has done its job at all. The only thing Cytoxan has done is made me almost 85% bald & it's still falling out. I was putting off washing my hair this past week because I knew what would happen. Sure enough, I took a shower last night & left half my hair in the bathtub. My husband held me as I bawled & told me I'm still beautiful, but it was just a hard thing to see.
My husband is also getting ready to leave early next year for another deployment for the Air Force, & he'll be gone 6 months this time. I'm so sad & worried....He only has 4 years left & I want him around for a long time. I'm just upset about him leaving & very worried about his safety.
Sorry to be a downer....just been a hard few weeks!
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Last edited by txrepub4God; 10-22-2015 at 08:22 AM.
Teri from Texas
Diagnosed w/WG March 2015
"Lord my God, I called to you for help, and you healed me." - Psalm 30:2
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