I am done. I can't take it anymore. The pain is non-stop. Massive, throbbing, pounding, pulsing pain in my sinuses ... Eustachian tubes opening and closing. And ... my joints. Oh how my joints are screaming. I can't even DO anything even remotely considered "working out". I try walking and can't go any distance. The major joints are in agony, and the tiny ones are screaming to be heard just as loudly.
I can't fight the depression anymore. I feel it licking at me like flames starting to spread. Even when I was eating clean, I wasn't feeling good and now I feel absolutely worse. It is HARD to smile every day. It is HARD to keep moving.
I wish I could spend a week in bed. I wish I could be holed up somewhere and get this FIXED!
I want to be able to work out again. I want to be able to walk and I was even thinking of starting running. But, I can't even sit in a chair without being acutely aware of every joint in my body and not in a good way.
I feel like I have a massive case of rhinitis, or am getting a cold? But if I was it would have been here by now. I sneeze, I feel like I am going to be congested any minute ... and the throbbing goes on and on and on across my cheeks, up into my forehead, I am feeling a gnarly throbbing in each and every one of my teeth. I have intermittent sharp stabbing pains in my ears.
Some days, I don't want to wake up.
I go see the doc on Tuesday. I'm getting very distressed about this. In all honesty, that's putting it mildly.
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