Neha,

Michelle could not have said it better. I'm so glad to hear a little more about you. I wish you could shake this guy out of your mind. I know it is hard, and I hope that the passage of time will do the trick. But that will be important time for you to focus on your own well-being, both physically and emotionally, and perhaps to pay more attention to those who love and need you, your mother and brother. It doesn't sound like this guy deserves such an important place in your consciousness.... the people who truly love you do deserve that. And you yourself... I'm worried about your blood pressure and other health issues. It sounds like you have access to good medical care and I hope you are making the appointments you need to address these issues. I'm glad to hear you will see a psych soon and hope he will be a good fit for you and will be helpful... I know that process can take some time, too.