Originally Posted by
brokenangel
all des thots,,,d words n people dt hav hurt me...d way m being treated here arnd by people,,d way lyf hs changed alongwid people for me after wegeners,,,al d physical stress n mental stress is making me mad,,i kp crying many tyms a day..at night i end up sleepless or wake up howling n cryng n scared upset....d whole day i be isolated frm people..sad down..feel disgusted n hopeless bd myself,,,get weird n crappy thngs in ma mind,,,jus feel lyk committin suicide....n somewhere yes d way iv bn betrayed n my feelings hav not bn reciprocated by d guy,d way he abused n treated me bad just for dt gal has left a bad scar,,,it hurts me...whras for hm dos words are jus bygones,,,he defnds d odr gal wenvr i point out her mistaks reg me d way she sd dt i sd die etc,,,in turn he points out my flaws blaming dt evn i hav sd wong thngs to her but nevr takes into account dt i m nevr d one to start wd al dt,,,infact i kp my mouth shut n suffer evrthn just for him..n he nevr appreciates dis...he hd once promisd me hel always be der fr me n hold my hand til hs last breath,,,,i dont und how does one girl influenc n brainwash hm soo much,hw cn he b so selfsih n frgt al d flngs atchmnt for me,,,,n wen u say il alwys be der for u d person doesnt evn bodr to gv a call or msg for days tgdr despite knowin my mental state.....sparing 2min for a loser lyk me is waste of tym...al dis stress n my profsnl lyf persnl lyf is taking a heavy toll on me....i jus wanna commit suicide
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