Not really sure why I'm posting this. I guess I'm angry.
While my doctor informed me of weight gain and all the other side effects from pred, he did not mention the one that affects me the most. The striae. I understand not everyone has them, but prednisone basically gave me steroid induced cushings disease. This disease is not pretty. My body will never go to back to the way it was. I understand Im alive and should be thankful, but this drug has destroyed my confidence and my ability to enjoy life at the moment. Someday I will probably get over it... But it's really affecting my mental state right now.
So before diagnosis... I was never skinny girl. But I was relatively trim with nothing jiggling around, proportionate and confident in my skin.
(sorry for the crappy pic, its one of the only "full body" shots I have that does not include dresses or other body shifting/changing material)
Here is a picture of me the day before my wedding. Panic was ensuing because I thought my face was getting fat at this point. HA
My face the beginning of July. Approx 1 month after Prednisone started.
It's worse now, than that. But it's coming down.. I think
Anyway... I gained some serious weight in what.. 6 months? About 30lbs.. All belly.. Let me show you.
Beautiful isnt it... See those lovely marks. Notice how my legs are pretty much the same size. You have no idea how many people ask me when I am due for a baby. It's depressing.
If I didn't know better I'd think something was growing in there.
Even places that haven't grown have the marks.
I have these marks from my ankles to my neck. They're even on the back of my neck, legs, everywhere. Only place none have arrived is my butt. My butt and legs have not put on any weight.. But this serious nastygram bag of lard stomach is no walk in the park. My doctor is all like "i've never seen someone have quite a time with it before..."
And I have lost 10lbs of it at this point.. So it was worse than this. At first I admit, I had quite the appetite. I had lost a lot of weight (I basically starved for 4-5 months prior to wegs. I just couldnt eat) so at first it was nice to eat again. Once I seen the scale go up 5lbs I said, whooaa mama. Immediately cut back to what I would consider normal portions. What I would normally eat when I was healthy. It was hard, I wanted to eat the fridge, table.. etc.. lol. Then, the weight kept coming. I lived off cucumbers from papas garden, iced tea and frozen grapes. Weight still kept coming. Now that I am lowering on pred some of it has come off.. But man, I don't care who ya are Jack... That skin ain't going back where it was.
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