Quite well now - why did I get it in the first place?

[freakyschizogirl]

I didnt choose Wegs but i have always had a sense of foreboding that i would be seriously ill at some point in my life...hypochondria probably but it was still there.

I did suffer from a lot of stress in most of my jobs and i believe this caused my first flare when i look back at how low my energy was and i was diagnosed with borderline anemia.
My last job i suffered panic attacks but havent had one in the year since i left.

And Leigh i know people like you describe...who can be so unhealthy and still be healthy enough to live without disease or serious health problems. I fear for my sister who eats way too much sugar in her diet...but there is no telling some people.

[Sangye]

I can see the possible attraction in thinking that one can actually choose a disease...because if you chose Wegener's, perhaps you can choose long lasting remission, a normal life without medication. I think when people are faced with a life-threatening disease what we desire most is control...this sounds a lot like that. I'm just not sure how it's helpful. Just like the book "The Secret" which is supposedly based on the Law of Attraction (basically what you send out to the universe by way of intentions, the universe send back) I think sets people up for disappointment - especially when they wish without working for something. I had a professor who was really into psychoneuroimmunology - which is basically mind-body health. That always made a lot more sense to me. I know that there's been some discussion on this forum about positive thinking and getting better...and people have different opinions about it, but there is a fair amount of research to support the healthy benefits of meditation, faith, prayer, feeling gratitude, dealing with stress, etc. I know for me, when I got sick, it was the most stressful time I have ever experienced. I was a new counselor in public education in California...which anyone familiar with the financial crisis out here and the massive budget cuts in education will understand. Now that I am working on improving my mindfulness, I often find myself holding my breath...I suck that bad at dealing with my stress. I can't help but feel that for some of us (perhaps more than others) stress materializes itself in very real and physical ways. I don't think that's the only reason I got this disease - I'm sure I had a pretty solid biological predisposition - but I think the way I dealt with my stress definitely contributed. Sorry if I'm just droning on. I'll get off my soapbox now.

Yes to all the above (except that you were droning or on a soapbox LOL)

[MCC]

I understand the link between stress and wegeners, but when I got it I was actually very happy and unstressed.

Someone gave me a copy of Louise Hayes book 'You can Heal your Life' and it actually made me kind of angry. She says things like 'we create every so called illness in our body...letting go of resentment will cure cancer...'.

Maybe it was a bad time for me to read it just after I'd been diagnosed as I wasn't very open to the idea!

[Sangye]

Ironically, I was really into Louise Hay's stuff before I became a Buddhist. So how did I get so sick??? LOL

[MCC]

Ironically, I was really into Louise Hay's stuff before I became a Buddhist. So how did I get so sick??? LOL

What do you think of Louise's stuff now?

[Sangye]

I think it's not a full equation. My post earlier in this thread explains why.

[gurinbasra]

I remember an intern which was about I think my second dr appmnt since I was diagnosed so I was extremely sick. She talked to me before the Rheumy came in and there I was cranking my ear to hear what she was saying as I'd lost most of my hearing, but I do remember that she told me "you know, there's nothing that you've done or eaten in your life that caused this, it's just something you've always had and the right conditions just lit up that grassfire and now we've got to get it under control, so don't let other people blame you for what you have". I must have been talking via Pred emotions to her. My ENT dr said he thinks I've always had it, and that it was just a matter of time for something in my life to set it off.

I was having the time of my life before I got sick, now I'm trying to have the time of my life, but my time get used up by the WG a little too much for my taste!

[pberggren1]

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I was having the time of my life before I got sick, now I'm trying to have the time of my life, but my time get used up by the WG a little too much for my taste!

Yup, I totally agree.

[Sangye]

Gurinder, what a great thing to hear early on from a doctor (even if it was just an intern).

I love your last sentence.

[marta]

Gurinder, I love the things you say and how you say them, and your outlook on life. You are an inspiration.